Thankful

Yesterday was Thanksgiving.  And for the first time, I hosted it at MY house.  The funny thing is everyone who heard, thought that I was actually cooking!  Um......no.  That would still be my mom's number uno job.  I just invited the people over.  She did the rest.  Granted, I spent about a zillion hours cleaning - my house hasn't been this spic 'n span since I moved in.  All in all, there were 9 of us (parents, bro, sis-in-law, 2 nieces, me and my kiddos).  Nice time.  Too much food.  And to be perfectly honest, I'm not even a fan of the Thanksgiving Feast.  I'd rather just cook up some pasta and call it a day.  Or better yet, I saw (courtesy of Facebook) that a few "friends" chose to go out to dinner.  Yes, a little on the pricey side.  But no cleaning, no prep, no clean up. It's sounding better and better!  But do you know what the best part of the whole day was?  It was getting to spend 11am - 3pm with my mom.  She came over early to start cooking.  My kids were still at their dad's so it gave her and I a chance to just hang out and chat - no interruptions, no kids, no needing to spell out words, you get the picture. I love my mom! 


And with that, here are some of the things I am thankful for this year:

1. My kids
2. My parents
3. My health and that of my family
4. My friends
5. My job
6. My house and neighborhood
7. My new love of exercise (yes, you heard that right!)

I realize most of those are kind of generic but they are honestly what I am most thankful for! Hope everyone's turkey day was a good one!  Now onto preparing for Christmas........

Better get some more cats!

So I was in bed last night and all of a sudden I had a realization: I actually may end up single for the rest of my life....and I'm OK with that.  I'm at a point where being on my own with my two little loveys sounds perfect to me.  They are really all I need (along with my family and good friends).  Do I need a man in my life?  No.  Do I want a man in my life? No necessarily.  Of course I wouldn't turn away Josh Duhamel (see last post) but it's not something that I'm wishing for at this point.  I used to pray and wish and hope that I'd meet my prince charming.  I'd worry that I'd be single forever and live alone for the rest of my life.  And although that still is a very real possibility, it doesn't scare me.  I'm happy right now.  I'm content. I mean, look at us.... aren't we the cutest little family of three??? 

But then as I was about to fall asleep and dream sweet dreams of me and my happy little family of three, my mind fast-forwarded to about 15 years from now when both my kids are grown up and most likely living on their own.  And there I am. In my house.  By myself.  Ok, now being single doesn't sound so appealing.  It sounds lonely and too quiet. 

Better get more cats!

I'm done....for real this time...

So I've decided that online dating isn't for me.  I mean, seriously, it really isn't for me. 

I think I'll just meet boys the old fashioned way - meeting my "Josh Duhamel look-a-like" while 

randomly walking amongst the produce section at the local grocery store. 

 

Yummy!

Back in the saddle...

So I did it.  I signed up for online dating...again.  I am a bit surprised that I did.  I mean, about three years ago when I did it the first time, it was not a successful venture and I swore (swore!!) I'd never do it again.  But for some reason, here I am once again...... 

The thought to sign up again first started a few months ago when my friend and I were moaning and groaning about how pathetic it was that we were single and there were no eligible bachelors around...anywhere!  I mean, we are above average in looks (she's beautiful!) and we are all-around great catches.  It's ok to toot my own horn, isn't it? So why were we still single?  Maybe it is because we are past the bar-hopping stage in our lives.  And when we do go out, it's with our girlfriends and we just want to hit up happy hour and relax from our busy week.  And as for meeting people through friends, well that's a complete bust.  All my friends are married with married friends. And the ones that have single friends, admit that even they wouldn't set us up together.  I guess I can thank them for looking out for me. 

So when online dating came up, I admitted that I had already ventured down that road before.  But that I might be interested in doing it again since it's been a few years and obviously I am still single as all hell!  It makes me nervous to accept the fact that I'm back online. I am experiencing all sorts of different emotions: nervous, anxious, embarrassed, scared... you name it.   I can understand why I might be nervous or anxious, but why am I embarrassed?  I think it's because by clicking on "accept", I am admitting that I can't meet a guy on my own.  But why should that be an embarrassment? It just is.  I am weird.  I admit it. 

Anywho....so begins my second (and hopefully last) hurrah into the world of online dating.  I am going to try and blog about the good, the bad and the ugly.  Hopefully there will be more good than bad or ugly.  But regardless, it will be documented.